Who Is Leading Who?

Today as I get ready to call it a day, I was wondering if anyone else has days like today was for me. I have to admit I am a creature of habit and when that becomes chaotic for too long, my brain begins to flash neon lights that say STOP!!!!!! I apparently missed that sign and before I knew my day was out of control. It is not that I mind change or doing things, but when it gets to the point I feel I can't breathe then it is time to step back. Apparently I missed that sign along the road as well. This all leads back to slowing down but I found tonight on my drive home from choir it has become more than that. I was listening to a song by Chris Tomlin called Jesus Leads Me. (That might not be the exact title...remember brain mush) The words that caught my attention...more like God's shout....was all the way my Jesus leads me. I nearly stopped the car in the middle of the highway. Can you see the sign now? Excuse me...lunatic driver.....oh I have digressed. It hit me like a slap in the face. Is God leading the journey or am I trying to take the controls? Hmmm...that sign must have fallen off in the ditch somewhere...I probably hit it! I was like when was the last time I stepped back and said you know I will get back to you on this. I need to pray about it. When was the last time I asked God what the plan for the day was? I was ashamed to say it has not been lately at all. My eyes were opened to why my car has been on the wrong highway of late. Did not God practically shout at me? I am still turning this over in my heart and mind. I am sure had God been leading the controls, I would feel less noise in my heart and mind and not feel like I am on overload. The thing is I must think I know best and that has gotten me to brain mush. I have never been one who likes to be doing and going all the time and that is where I am right now and my heart has been trying to tell me that for while. It took a few words for God to get me to see that He needs to be in the lead. He is my biggest cheerleader. He has been guide. He had never let me fall from His heart. He has given me grace and mercy in every trial. Why I haven't let Him do that lately is beyond me. I realized tonight I have got to let some things go or I am not going to be able to truly do what He wants me to do very well at all. He knows I am a passionate person and yet He knows without rest I burn out. It is time for me to step back and regain some balance and breathe. Maybe He should make the signs much bigger so I stay on the roadway. Better yet maybe I should move over and let Him drive. Until our teacups meet again, I pray you have been blessed by God's love. PS Let Him drive.

Blessings as always,
Tammy